"Catalyst" 2026

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27 is for gentleness. Tomorrow ain't promised, gotta choose me today.

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I had a really emotionally difficult week and I immediately was like hm, I wanna run away and not hang out with anyone and disconnect and disappear and blah blah blah. What I actually did was go to church, go to book club, nap, call my friend, cook, and went to my fave coffee shop for a free coffee. I felt the pull to the extreme but I didn't go there. Dare I say, I went in the opposite direction and took extreme care to be very soft and easy and gentle on myself.

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It took being treated harshly to finally treat myself with the utmost tenderness. To realize how much I need gentleness and crave softness and desire whimsy. To realize that to get back to myself is to create again and write again. Creating and writing as relief cuz the dam broke the other day and all that gotta have somewhere to go, ain't it? I'm charting new waterways for myself, carving out new rivers and creeks, letting all this flow out of me uninhibited. Not stopping up none of this no more. Saving face for who? Stunting for who?

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I'm tending to myself with care cuz I deserve that and ain't nobody responsible for that but me. I have to create a safe space for me cuz who else goin do it?

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At first I was like wow that wasn't no birthday fr. I gotta do it all over. But no baby it was the birthday you needed to finally wake you up. It was the new beginning you ain't know you needed. Clean slate. Starting over. Turning a new page. Shifting your perspective. Don't wait till tomorrow, it ain't promised. Start today. Reclaim today. Live your life right now today.

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